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"All I Have"
The Rocket Summer
Everybody's hurting.
Everybody knows it.
Are you trying to stop it?
Everyone's watching.
What are you gonna do?
Are you trying to stop it? Everyone's watching.
Everyone is conversing. Everyone's listening.
Oh, yeah they were a part.
He was a part and she was a part of it
Oh, falling apart, is anyone watching?
Is anyone listening? Are we listening?
And all I have is all of me.
And it's all that I can give.
Our disappointed hearts will heal.
Our hearts will spill
Over you, over me, over this.
They never knew, they never knew,
What you're going through.
Cause you got everybody thinking,
There's nothing wrong with you.
And you fall apart cause you felt a part.
And they were a part of it.
Oh, falling apart, is anyone watching?
Is anyone listening? Are you listening?
And all I have is all of me.
And it's all that I can give.
Our disappointed hearts will heal.
Our hearts will spill
Over you, over me, over this.
On dark and stormy days, somewhere it's glowing.
And even though I know I'm here, I know I'm going.
Oh, you never stop, you just collide.
Collapse onto your side.
So rise and make it right.
Yeah!
And all I have is all of me.
And it's all that I can give.
Our disappointed hearts will heal.
Our hearts will spill
Over you, over me, over this.
So sometimes I fall victim to the my worst nightmare. I have always feared being a bad person, being a bad friend. Now, this is something that everyone has to deal with themselves, and I have always hoped that my friends and the people I care about, would be willing to tell me when I am not being a good person, a good friend. What I never considered is that they may have different expectations than the ones I put on myself. I want to be the one person that my friends can count on. I want to be the one that will drive any number of miles to be there and comfort them when they need it. I want to be the person that they call at 3:30 in the morning when they just need some advice, or they can't sleep. I want to be a friend that is closer than family. I fear that I have not been this person to the people I truly care about. I don't want surface friendships and convenience friendships. I want deep, loving relationships that last a lifetime. Relationships that hurt and heal at the same time. I don't know if people know this or not. So I just wanted to let you know. Also, if someone is your friend, they don't care about stupid little things. It is selfish to keep your problems to yourself. You may think that you are helping by not being a problem, but those around you know you are hurting, know you need to talk, know that even though you don't want to admit it, or even know it yourself, you need a hug. Just ask...I know this is a cheesy poem but I saw it on the internet and I really liked it...
A friend should be radical, should love you when your unloveable, hug you when your unhuggable, and bear you when your unbearable. A friend should be fanatical, should cheer when the whole world boos, dance when you get good news and cry when you cry too. But most of all, a friend should be mathematical. They should multiply your joy, divide your sorrow, subtract the past, and add to tomorrow, calculate the need deep in your heart and be bigger than the sum of your parts.
Anyway, to my friends, I am going to try harder to be there for you. Let me know when you need me, it is selfish of me to take your friendship and not give any back in return.
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